I'm emo, that's why I'm here blogging now.
I don't want to tweet so much about emo thing, because I don't even know what to say.
I can't describe my mood now, I can't express my feeling now. This fucking speechless moment. :S

STRESS!!!
Although I'm having one week holiday, it doesn't seem like a holiday. It's a week for me to deal with assignments!!
There are so many things to care about, not only the studies, but there are still somethings that bother me.
I hope to have a carefree day, seriously just one day, please! I'm really hoping for it. :(

Some unhappy things happened between us. Hmm....I really don't know what to say. Until now, I still don't know what to say. I think we're fine right now but I still feel there's something weird between us. What's wrong with me?? Sighh. How good if I know what's wrong with me.

I start to doubt myself. I start to doubt, am I suit to be somebody's gf? am I really ready to be in a relationship all these while? am I good enough to be somebody's gf? Sometimes, I even think that I don't know how to be somebody's gf. All these things really stress me. I have no idea how to play this role well. I'm afraid I will say something wrong. From now on, I guess I've to be careful for everything I say.
the 'confidence' issue, yeah, I really shouldn't have told you. yeah, we shouldn't even talk about it.
for the 'console' issue, yeah, I'm really sucks in consoling. but before I typed the 'just chill' msg, I really did console you. However, everything I said to you seemed to be so wrong to you. I was speechless and I didn't know what else to say. This is the only thing I could say.

Now I start to miss the time when we were just friends, good friends. How happy we were. No problem at all. Things are really different when the relationship is different. Perhaps these are all the challenges that we need to go through, so I'm gonna take it as a test. I hope we can go through all these tests, don't let them beat us. I will stay strong, hope it's worth it. :)

Thanks to all these stress, I have lost appetite for 3 weeks. I was such a big eater, but now once I see the food, I'm full, I don't feel like eating. Look at the food is enough for me, lol. In other words, I've lost appetite. But I still eat, cos if not, I will suffer from gastric, so I have to eat. After I eat, I feel like puking all out but I can't. STRESS MUCH hor??? :'(

I hope everything is gonna be fine soon. :]

Twitter is down tonight. I don't want to sleep so early, I have nothing to do online, therefore I'm using my time now to blog here. Yes, I'm always lazy to blog. Why blog? Got twitter ma. Twitter is the microblog, just so you know. ;)
Alright, I guess somebody is reading my blog recently for god-knows-what-reason, haha. and oh ya, I blog for fun, so I've never re-read what I've blog in the past. I can't imagine how childish I was, the way I blog and whatever. So yeah, I won't re-read my blog post. I blog to express my current feeling, done blogging and close case.

Hmm...so somebody asked me to blog something for him. Hah, how should I start?
Ok, I'm now in a relationship with............someone. Lol. I guess I've never blogged about my relationship before, right? The relationship I mean here is, the love relationship. Friendship and the relationship with my family, I probably have blogged a lot about it, maybe? I don't remember. Heeeee.
So yeah, I just got into a relationship not long ago, one month ago is not long.
How do we start this relationship? Like normal couple lo, met each other, became friends, getting closer, texting, outing, calling, fell for each other,*click, right timing*, couple! Ta-dah! Hahaha.
Don't expect me to blog here for detail, that's my privacy. Hahaha!
Hmm..that's all for it first. I don't know what to blog already. This is such a short post, but it actually took me long time to blog it. In the middle part, I was stucked for quite long and I didn't know how to continue.

It's 12.44am now. Good night! I should sleep. :) <3

Does that mean a lot to you?

Hello! I'm blogging at this time, 11:46pm, because me is wide awake now. I am super energetic now, I don't know why. Since I have nothing to do, so I signed in to blogger, trying to type something, see whether there's anything for me to blog for.

Oh ya, I would like to say, from now on, I guess my blog post will most probably be tones of words. Lazy girl like me is lazy to take pictures using my camera nowadays because the process of uploading the pictures from the camera to the computer is a long and suffering process. hahaha! what a reason! yeah, but that's my reason. So....my blog will be dull, you can leave or never come back to my blog if you don't like to see posts with full of words. ohh ya, the other reason I don't want to post picture here is because I have no nice picture to share. I'm not a photographer, I can't shoot beautiful things. I'm not pretty, the outcome of the pictures of me is pointless to share. LOL!!

Today, I tweeted about "No matter how, once you criticise my parents, you'll automatically be in my blacklist."
Hell yeah, I do really mean that, ok?
1-2 weeks ago (I forgot how long time ago), I had a conversation with somebody which the way she talked offended me. I don't want to tell the whole convo here, because.....erm...nothing, I just don't want to tell people publicly over here.
We talked about some r/ship stuff (just so you know, r/ship stuff can be about boy-girl r/ship, homo r/ship, friendship, parent-child r/ship, teacher-student r/ship and whatever), and I just told her about my parents' thought in this kind of issue. My parents' point of view is different from her. Maybe you can say my parents are conservative or whatever, but everyone has their own way of thinking, right? Then she straight away said:"Waaaa..how can your parents think that way? It's wrong, you know?? ...................................."
Holyshitwtfwthgoddamnshit-what are you talking about, girl?
You commented on my parents!!!!!!!!!! wtfwth!!
Ok, I admit that I don't agree with the way my parents think.....even me myself never commented anything on it, and you don't know with what kind of thought commented/crictise my parents! wtf!
I don't even dare to comment/criticise anything and you commented about my parents in front of me???
How dare you????
You just said the way my parents think is WRONG!
oh crap, the thing I can't the stand the most is when I heard whoever criticise my parents in front of me! uggghhhh!

Ok, I'm gonna stop complaining here. If not, I'm gonna write a lot here.
nevermind la, just forget it la... hmmm.. :)

I don't know whether is that really mean a lot to you. But I just hope you are doing well in everything.

After so long...

Oh hi! I'm back here to blog. *ugghhh, you don't say* LOL!
Hmm..I just got the mood to blog suddenly. So let me blog when I still have the mood to blog now.

Looking at my last blog post, ouuhh well, it was in Oct 2011. It has been 7 months that I didn't blog.

Boooo-yahhh, lots of things happened during these 7 months. Well, it's also impossible for me to tell you everything. Nahhh..I'm just gonna simply crap here. :DD


It's the year 2012 already. I have completed my foundation in Jan 2012. It's May now. I have started my degree in Feb and my finals will be in June, which means one more month to go. Hmm...seriously, honestly, degree life is hectic. It's a totally different thing from the foundation. I still remember how did I suffer, struggle with the assignment last month, where every assignment's due date and tests were almost the same time. They could even fall in the same week or same day! Remember, this is only the first sem, 4 subjects. For the coming 2 years, 5 more coming semesters, and probably will have 5 subjects in one sem in the future, I can't imagine how am I gonna survive with all these stuffs! 

Ugghh, this is life. We have to accept it, face it, and go through it. True story of life, I should say. :]

It's the third week of May. May is gonna end soon, June is coming up soon. time flies...........like a ROCKET. -.- 

Hmmm..it was a tough week for me for the past few weeks. It was not tough that I had a lot of assignments, but there were lots of things happened. I overthink and overthink until I didn't sleep well, had nightmares, sleepy for the whole day, energetic for the whole night, couldn't concentrate while driving, and etc. This lasted one whole week on me, ok??!! 

Haihhh..I don't know why I think so much. This has no point but only making myself suffer. Oh ya, this is mood swing, but NOT hormone imbalance, ok??!! I can just be emo, sensitive and get mood swing anytime, anyway, anywhere. Just so you know. hahaha!

Anyway, I have gone through it and I am just trying to not let myself to think too much again, AGAIN.

Lastly, I'm glad to have met all these nice people around me lately. They are being so nice to me. I'm thankful for meeting you all in my life. Thank you thank you! I'll be extra nice to you all too! ^_^

Why am I suddenly saying like this? Hmmm..thinking back to the past, I seriously feel I have met a lot of nice ones around me. Thanks for having these opportunities to meet you all. I should appreciate it and say it out before it's too late, right? :)

*Jenice and I were trying to be smexy in the picture. LOLOLOLOL! how perasan! :P*

Finally, they have admitted. It's so good after telling each other right? No matter how, she is glad to have met him. They probably had no idea that they can be so close like now before that. It's fate, it's the fate that make them meet each other. How far and how long will they go? They probably have no idea. Again, let fate decides it. The right timing will come, trust me. :)

RIP Steve Jobs

Steve Jobs has passed away. RIP.
Seriously, i was very shocked when i heard this news. I heard this news when I was on the way driving to college, I didn't believe it at first, until the DJ mentioned it for few times.
Thanks to him, our world has a better improvement in technology.
iPhone, iPod, iPad, Mac Book and etc, are all invented by him. these products have made the whole world are crazy over it. his creative are great! :D
what's so special for iPhone? it has only one button, this has made the life so easy, right? haha.

I have just watched his speech which was given in the Stanford Uni. feel free then search it on youtube and watch it. they are meaningful.

"You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle." part of the speech by Steve Jobs.

"Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life."

There goes my Sem 1

ooooooooo laaaaaa laaaaaaa....and there goes my sem one! :P
below these are the photos that taken on last friday, my last day of sem one!

We had taken many pictures on that day..till I am lazy to upload, so I combined them.

hehehehehhh...lazy+smart! that's me! :P *joking lahh*

I just uploaded some of the photos only.

This pictures are all about that guy, you see who appears in every each of the pic?

It's Bird gor lohh..that blue shirt boy.

see...he's LOA!

he destroyed the pictures! hahahaha!
he said he wanna appear in every picture worrr..

angel & me.
we just gone crazy in a sudden. so we took many ugly+funny pictures! xD

me, stephanie & elaine.
steph likes this picture mucchh mucchh. i like her expression too. ;)

we are hot and sexy secretaries! ;p

boss is yuen zhi. :D

well, i know I look Dai-B enough. :)

hmmmm...3 days to go to finals! time not enough adyyy! Help! :(
good luck to myself. :/

hooooooo...it's saturday today!

this week must be the most busy week since I started my college. why?

I had 3 assignments to hand in. 1 test and 1 final exam. walaooo!

luckily, I'm managed to hand in! why?

I must self-praise here! because I manage my time well. :P

especially my computing assignment. it had the most thing to do for it. I did it from last week till thursday. almost 14 days only I had done it.

it's a pair work. Elaine is my group mate. guess how many pages we've got for this assignment?

63++ pages!!

wow! both of us were so happy when we saw all the pages printing out!

we felt so satisfied...! :D

it's the first time, we did so many pages for assignment. it's the thickest assignment I've ever had.

had math test 1 this tuesday. I've got my result yesterday.

EHHHHH, I'm satisfied with my result lehh. I got 49 marks over 50.

hohohohohohoho....happyyy... :)

I must study harder for the coming test! :D

hmmm...finally everyone was done with their assignment! we were so happy and we wanted to celebrate it!

went to salmon steak house to have lunch with my classmates. :D
i was very very very very tired that time. my eyes were so heavy that time.

as what I said before, my college classmates were funny!

in the time we had lunch there, all the time we were joking and laughed so hard.
laughing, it's enough already. no need to eat already. xD

at 4.30pm, i went back home lorr..as my mum came already.

they went for pool~ i wanna pool also~

long time never pool with them already. :P

on the way walked to my mum's car, i got a revive balloon. wanted to give to my classmates at 1st...cos i dont wanna take the balloon along the road.
it's such a awkward scene. hahahahahahahahaha!

but then, sarah tied that balloon to my bag. ahhhh...!

on the way i walked to my mum's car, got some drivers looked at me with an awkward look. >.<
LOL! xDD

camwhore a lil with the balloon when i reached home. ;)

i like the above pic..! :D

yeah, middle finger. xD
i dont know why i like to pose this recently.. haha.

i like being rude.

rude is my attitude.

hahahahahaha! :D

College Friends! :D

Sarah

Angel

p/s: I have no idea why I smiled this way. Maybe I was happy and proud that I am taller than the boy who stood next to me. He is Bird. Yes, no mistake, he called himself Bird. :)

my group mate: Wayne(left), Sher Lin(right)

Weinnie.

Annie on left.

Juin Zhuen and Stephanie.

Ohhh, looking back at my previous post, I have been no blogging for almost a month! eehhhyyy, I think I am really not a good blogger. pai-seh~

Seriously, I have been very busy all these days. Actually I feel like blog something on here, but I don't have the time. Damn! whenever I wanna blog, I have no time. When I'm free and bored to the max, I have nothing to blog about. When I blog and see the incident happened so long time ago, then I have no mood to blog liao.

Let just say the fashion show that just happened 2 weeks ago. After 2 weeks, I still cannot manage to blog it. Now I'm typing, obviously, I'm not going to blog about it. I'm here to complain my life...hehehehehehehhh... bear with me, friends. :)

Ehhhhhh, I must tell this thing here...! Something funny! :D

You know, I have a bunch of crazy friends in college.

My break started from 18th of June and gonna end in the coming Monday. D:

On last friday, which is on 17th of June. it was a day before break.

My friends thought my birthday was on 18th of June so they celebrated my birthday on 17th of June. They wanted to celebrate earlier for me. hahaha!

They only realize they made the mistake when they brought the cake in. LOL!

The whole class approached to me and wished me "Happy birthday" then I was like "huh? what happened to you all? what's going on?".

then I said:"Ehh, my birthday is in July lahh..."

Everyone o.O

then this time somebody carried the cake in and everyone sang a birthday song to me.

hahahahahahahaha! they are very funny lahhh..

even though it's a mistake, i still appreciate it. thanks a lot for doing this thing for me. I like it! :D

let it be a beautiful mistake. :)

I really wonder how they made the mistake. Sarah checked my birthday from Facebook, i guess she saw wrongly. Nobody else checked it. hahahahahahahaha!

My friends are cute! ;)

I like my college classmates. They are fun! Having class with them is really fun. Everyday go college like playing around only. Chit chatting, joking, iPhone gaming and many more.

but...but...college assignments are sucks! when think of it, stress is coming now...

Errrrr....have to hand in 3 assignments after this break and I have just done one only. Hell!!

okay, that's all for today.

Kthxbye!

hehehehehe....my camwhore pictures. ;)

Hello! It's 31st of May today! Tomorrow is the first day of June! woah! the time really flies.

so fast, half of the year gone! don't know whether is a good thing or a bad thing. :/

Now, I'm gonna post about my presentation which is on 25th of May, it's on last Wednesday.

Overall, my presentation was fine and it went smoothly. I'm satisfied with it.

No doubt, we had put alot of effort in it and practiced few times before the presentation.

It was my first presentation in college.

It was the first time I wore formal attire to college.

It was my first presentation that lasted 2 hours, seriously. :O anyway, it was a group presentation.

In the beginning, we were very nervous but soon when we got used to it, it was getting better. :)

We made good use of the 2 hours, that 2 hours was just nice to our presentation. hehehehe.

sher lin & I.

right after we had done our presentation.

Wyane & I.

My presentation group! :D

thank you for doing well in the performance.

wish we had another chance to work together.

By the way, i like my hair on that day. it was straight, soft and manageable. hahaha. i didn't straighten it purposely before that and didn't do any treatment before the day.

you can ignore this part.. I know it may sound perasan. :P

Meet up with'em---21st of May

Ohhh, 'm seriusly busy right now. I have many things to blog now but I don't have much time. Aiikks. When I'm free, I have nothing to blog. When I have things to blog, I'm busy. Ugggghh.

Okayy, now, I'm gonna blog the day I had outing with Shi Yi and Amy

on 21st of May at Times Square! it was about 1 week ago..

Oh my gooodd! I woke up late on that day! it was supppeeer LATE! we wer

e to reach at the LRT station at 9.30am but I woke up at 9.2oam! veeeerrrryyyy so

rrryyyy weiiihhh. I set the alarm but I couldn't listen to the alarm. :( everytime als

o like that, i don't know why. HELP! of course, got scolded by mum! :((

when i reached the LRT station, they were there waiting for me already. sooorrrryyy (x infinity)! :(

after that, everything was going smooth la. had a chat with'em all the journey to

the destination.

wow! through meeting with them, you can know the technology is evolving

too! because everyone's phone change already, we are using smart phones currently! YENG leh?

i remembered last time we were using the oldest phone, key pad one. some more amy's phone has no colour, the black and white screen. hahaha! now she's the one who use the most high-end phone! Samsung Galaxy Ace! cool! xDD

Below these are just some random photos. *just for your entertainment* LOL!

你们是这样想我的吗？

请告诉我，是不是无论我怎么做都是错的？

有时，我真的不知该如何做人。。

这样做又给你骂，那样做又很奇怪。我很无奈啊！

有时，我真的很不喜欢你们把我当小孩子般看待。

我知道你们是为我好，不过，我已经长大了。你们可以给我自由吗？

我知道你们不可能马上放手。不过，你们可以不要捉得太紧吗？我有点呼吸困难。

我知道我看的世界不够你们多，我还有很多东西没看过，你们可以让我去看看吗？

你们每次讲我不懂这个那个，你们有给我知道这个那个吗？

你们每次讲我不懂事，不成熟等等不好的东西，我真的觉得很厌烦！

我真的有那么烂吗？如果真的那么烂的话，把我丢掉啊！

我自问我是个好孩子咯。

至少我没有离家出走，至少我没有自甘堕落，至少我没有杀人放火烧屋子。

为什么你们总是喜欢讲我讲得好似一无是处？

有时我很质疑自己，到底我有什么用处？我有什么本领？

我很自卑！我对自己没有信心！

我差！我烂！我笨！我丑！我懒！

你们好像都不怎样信任我。

你们好像都认为我一无是处。

怎么办？

表面上我总是扮得若无其事，蛮不在乎，都是装出来的。

我很厉害掩饰吧？呵呵... *无奈*

Hello! It's 4th of May today! Time really flies. So fast, it's the beginning of May, it's going to the middle of the year!

Waaaaaa... I feel like the time is running nowadays. Till now, I feel like I have not done anything meaningful.

Recently, I got many assignments in one shot and all the due dates are are packed! almost at the same time. most of the due dates are in the end of May and the beginning of June. uggghh.

I will have a presentation in the end of May. Tests are in the end of May too. aikkkksss.

Hmm..I don't know what to blog about. Ok, I know I'm having a boring life compared to the other people. But I'm enjoying my boring life, chun huh? *salute me* :P

compared to the other people, I don't hang out that often, I seldom shopping, I seldom have party, I seldom watch movies in cinema... so what? I'm still alive. If for you, can you? ;)

By the way, please don't say that I'm not a sociable person. This cannot tell you whether a person is sociable or not. This only tells you that a lifestyle of a person.

Think before you say. I really dislike people say that I'm not socialable. You will only say

that if you don't know me well. After knowing me, you will find out that I'm just treating new friends cool.

ok, that's all about today. I'm talking crap. ignore my full-of-words-post ba. :)

sometimes, I'm just being lazy to think and decide everything. Sorry!

其实自恋的人很聪明，因为爱上自己永远不会受伤

Snowflake! :D

Met up with Feng Jie on friday! woah! it has been a very long time that i have never seen her. finally, the day came. :)

My class ended at 1pm that day. Met her after my class ended. Had lunch at Jojo Little Kitchen as Feng Jie never tried before. Of course, when we together, there were alot of chit chats. we talked about everything! :D

i love the moment chit chat with best friends. it's like no pressure at all, no need to care about so much.

then we had our dessert at snowflake. i have heard about Snowflake for so many times but I had never tried it till the day we met. Feng Jie promised to bring me there one day as she tried before and she thinks that it's nice. :P

sharing is caring, okay?

the first thing you enter Snowflake is not finding a seat ya. Order first. then after you pay, you will get a "Beeping UFO", as like the image below.

what's that?

when you see this "UFO" vibrating and shining, it means your food is ready. take the "UFO" to the counter and collect your food.

this was what I ordered. I forgot its name but I know it's a hot sell item as I found out in the menu.

see the black black layer? don't afraid! it's grass jelly a.k.a cincau.

the orange and white colour thingy is a ....... erm....i don't know how to say. at first, it tasted nice but when i almost finished it, there was a taste that I dislike. I don't know what's that. :O *my personal thought*

below the grass jelly, it's ice. half bowl of ice.

this is Feng Jie, my best friend! :D

The Bling Label Fashion Show

it was the fashion show of the the bling label fashion house. it was the first time i had cat walk. LOL! a special experience. it was fun but tiring though.

reached there at around 8.30am. it was raining heavily in the morning. at first, i was supposed to go there by bus since my mum was going to assunta to follow up. but it was raining, therefore my mum fetched me there.

after having breakfast nearby, then started to make up and prepared everything.

halfway-make up

before the fashion show. i know my make up was thick, especially my lips right? hahaha. i purposely put that colour of lip stick one. XD

anyway, i will never put that colour on my lips if i go out on normal day.

it's just for this fashion show. :P

after fashion show and after the busy hour. the time to rest and to camwhore. :D

Happy birthday, Jo Lyn!

Happy birthday to Jo Lyn! :D

she is my college classmate, just knew her 2 weeks ago.

we went to a japanese restaurant nearby college to celebrate for her.

do you realise anything?

yeah, everyone is wearing black. cool right? :D

the whole class wore black shirt.

somebody just decided what colour to wear on the coming days. funny! haha. XD

went to christabelle boutique to practise fashion show on the next day. it was very tiring. we practised till 11pm++. everyone was like still confusing. im very afraid that i have not enough time to change my outfit. :/

hope everything will be fine. :)